Summer Hasn't Hit Me Yet...

So I am finally done with my dreaded finals. I don't think I've done well in anyone of them, except for History, so I have a feeling that my GPA won't hardly reach a 3.0, but for now I just don't care. For the last two months I've had no motivation. I haven't been passionate about anything except for my blogs, and now I'm starting to lose interest in them too...

Agh I don't know what to do with myself >.<
It seems like nothing truly fits me, or my personality. Well nothing that I've tried anyway.

Anyway, summer has officially started for me. But the fact that I've officially ended my freshman year hasn't really hit me yet. Maybe it's because I haven't received my final grades yet. Maybe it's because I'm attending classes over the summer (Basic economics and Performances on Film for the gen. ed requirements). Or perhaps it's because I'm spending my Friday, at home, watching a House marathon with the sis, griping about my sucky life when I could be out watching a movie with friends, or going to a show. =/

It also doesn't help that I'm already missing a certain someone, whom I haven't seen for only a week. But this has been a very LONG week. One of the longest weeks of my life. =/

And it sucks to know that I probably won't see this person in a very, VERY long time. He'll be busy with work and classes, and so will I...

Agh it's torture =[

And what's worse is that he has no idea. And I'm too chicken to tell him.

Blahh...

He's probably forgotten about me already too. =/

Things To Do Today...

1. Actually work on my 1000 word blog assignment for Compisition II class, which is due at noon tomorrow. >_<
2. Work on my essay for the same stupid class, which is also due tomorrow. >___<
3. Study for the upcoming final exams this week. I have the History exam on Tuesday, Intro to Formal Logic on Wednesday, World Perspectives on Thursday, and Science on Friday. I am DREADING the Science exam, since that's my hardest class. >____<

Ahhh FML

Childhood Dreams: Live It or Leave It?

I've been thinking about the decisions that I've been making for my future much more so than usual, and it's made me question what I really want out of my life.

You see, I'm a pre-law student. I'm double majoring in political-science and philosophy. My goal is to go to a prestigious law school, preferably Columbia in NYC, the city I was born and raised in. After that, I'll be an attorney and maybe follow the political route by working in the United Nations which is also in the city.

But for the past few weeks, I'm not so sure if I really want to be a lawyer.

I would still like to go to law school, but only because you could do almost anything with a law degree.

If I had my way, and money was not an issue, I would want to be things that is completely different from being a lawyer.

For one thing, I would love to work with animation. I'm not the best drawer, but I'm okay. And it'd be really cool if I could be a voice actor. Actually, ever since I was nine I've been dreaming up my own cartoon series. I would continuously draw my main characters and make up plots for the episodes. I think I have some really old comics I created in one of the many old notebooks I have stashed in my bedroom somewhere. If I feel nice, and brave, I'll look for some of those old comics and scan them on this blog one day.

I've also wanted to work in journalism, ever since Middle School. I love to write, and it'd be cool being a TV news reporter, telling the public what they need to know. I'd love to travel the world, watching history before my eyes and giving the public a chance to view it too. Writing editorials would be amazing since I would have a chance to express myself through a medium that will reach a lot more people than this blog would ever reach. And maybe, through those editorials I'd reach out to even just one person, and give that person something profound to think about even if he/she would only think about it for a few minutes.

Maybe that's the type of career I need: a career that will allow me to give people a chance to actually think. And by that, I mean think outside the box. Outside their usual point of views, outside their safe state of minds. I want to change the world.

I don't know exactly how I'll be able to do that.
Hell, I don't even know what I'm exactly going to do with my life.

Except for going to law school. That's one thing I guess.

I mean being in the Law profession can extract change, so it's the next best thing.

And yet I still have my doubts...

A phase maybe?

Or should I take my childhood dreams seriously?

My First Post...

So, as the title says, this is my first post.

I wish I could have come up with a better title name, but my mind was not in the mood to spend some time coming up with something much more interesting. So sorry if you were hoping for a more exciting and mind-blowing title.

And before I move on, I must inform you that I decided to make this blog on a whim. I felt like expressing myself in some shape and form and I thought that this is the best way to do it since I'm almost always on my laptop wasting my time. So I figured, if I spend 80% of my day wasting away on crappy, yet addicting, sites like Facebook (NOT Twitter, I promised myself that i will stay away from it since it's taken over our media/culture like the plague), then I might as well use the internet for something worthwhile like recording my thoughts.

Wait, I can easily do that on Facebook 0_o

Okay, well let's just say I wanted a place to express myself more fully than a one sentence status on my FB page.

And because I was bored.

So, if I actually have an audience reading this blog, then I hope you enjoy it. If not, then that's okay because I don't really care anyway.

I found that life is more tolerable when you don't care. It's just too bad that I can't follow this philosophy all the time since I'm a pre-law college student on the verge of a stressful week of finals.

Yay for me.

Nicky♥